I'm Nathan and I'm 17 years old.
This is the first video that I ever uploaded on to my YouTube channel.
1,405 days ago.
I had absolutely no idea what I was doing.
I've gone through a lot of phases, including growing a mustache.
Not sure how I feel about that
I want to share with you how I learned to tell stories,
or really how I'm learning to tell stories
because I think I'm probably always going to be figuring things out.
This has been a long and very confusing process for me, to say the least.
As you can tell I'm...
not that tall of a guy.
Yeah, I kind of feel like my body never got the memo.
You know at age 12, it was just like "Meh, you're tall enough".
Storytelling is something we all do, it's human.
I think it's our way of trying to understand the world around us.
It's how we create bonds, how we make one another laugh,
it's part of our DNA.
The point is you're a storyteller whether you realize it or not.
What can you expect on this channel?
I honestly have no idea. I'm throwing myself into YouTube for a couple of reasons.
I do not know anything about using a camera and that's exactly why I'm trying to use one right now.
I would like to learn.
Now, I don't think there's a correct way or format to tell a story.
In fact, I think we all have our own unique form of expression.
However, there seem to be a few patterns that I've noticed,
a few elements that seem to kind of lace together all the best artists out there.
And so, I think that this is kind of my way of trying to break these things down and better understand them.
"To be interesting, be interested."
I think we all speak the language of enthusiasm, whether we realize it or not.
There's something about excitement, you can see in people's eyes
and I can say, at least for myself, that I'm attracted to that.
I think this is why
the joy the children, seem to have is something that we as adults spend our entire lives trying to rediscover.
I've always been more of an intense person
and I remember growing up being told pretty often to chill out,
you know, to relax.
And, that always drove me nuts,
because that felt very much against my nature.
It took me a long time to realize that, you know what, I actually don't have to chill up.
That being plugged in, at least in my experience,
and putting in the work and putting out that energy,
it seems to really attract people.
I don't think there's anything wrong with intensity as long as you're channeling that energy
towards something constructive, something positive.
"Art is the elimination of the unnecessary."
For me intrigue is born from the unspoken.
I had to kind of figure this out the hard way.
Hello. This is Nathan
I'm gonna do some interviewing in a little bit.
So yeah, I'm going, we're going to breakfast now.
For so long I would lay out absolutely everything,
and speak as if I was talking to a five-year-old.
When you see closely, these are little worker ants .
You know that ants can carry up to ten times their body weight?
That is serious strength.
They can also handle far more pain than a human.
That means that they have much more endurance,
much more strength,
so that's why people are so afraid of ants being huge, because
that would be destruction.
The problem, of course, with all this is that that's
People like to figure things out for themselves
Is that me?
Oh my God, that's me.
I mean, okay. I admit it's kind of funny,
but mainly because I'm unintentionally doing it.
You wouldn't seriously watch this in your free time.
All we all want are the clues.
Instead pretend that you're speaking with your most intelligent friends,
that makes things a lot more interesting because suddenly it's not so one-sided.
You're part of a dialogue.
I did a lot of thinking about this, and for a very long time I was I was afraid of the criticism,
and the opinions of people, and being hated
So that's why I've stayed away from social media for so long
and I guess one of the reasons why I wanted to make this video was just to
encourage anybody who is watching that you should just go for it
and not fear the consequences and instead learn from them
and learn from your experiences in doing.
I regret not having started this sooner and
having gone for it because I've already found that I've learned so much.
I definitely think it's the start of something just crazy awesome and exciting.
I think all of us know this but there were a lot of amazing
artists throughout history that spent their entire lives in poverty
and without receiving the recognition that they would later receive
after they passed.
This is because they were ahead of their time.
They were doing something that people weren't ready for yet,
but they were pushing boundaries.
I think if you're not pushing some kind of boundary within the medium that you're working in or within yourself,
then there's more room to explore and expand.
I kind of feel like something about all this has to feel uncomfortable for me to know
that I'm doing it right.
I just think it's uninteresting to play it safe
I mean the stuff that I've looked back on and feel the most proud of
Was the stuff that made me feel the most uncomfortable throughout the process.
"Sometimes reality is too complex. Stories give it form."
However much my ego would like to think otherwise,
none of the stories I've ever told are really about me.
I might be the protagonist, you know
I'm filming myself and my life,
but the truth is what I'm talking about are my experiences,
and by extension, those are human experiences.
These are the things that we all feel and go through,
and that's why it's interesting is because it's relatable on that level.
"If I don't have red, I use blue."
This is very simple to me. Use whatever you have access to.
I feel like I say this a lot but
I feel so lucky to live in a time where
the tools to tell stories have become so much more accessible.
Here's the thing that it's just fascinating to me.
There is an enormous amount of content out there now
and not just on YouTube but online in general, right? It's very saturated.
And so there's a lot of crossover
you know, there's a whole community of people now that are
creating content on self-improvement,
and more than ever what this has kind of made me realize is that,
you know, having a more expensive camera is not going to be the thing that helps distinguish you.
It's going to be your ability to tell stories,
your ability to express yourself, and put your voice out there.
A lot of people feel stressed and overwhelmed by this,
which I completely understand. I felt like that for a very long time, but
lately I've been just trying to approach it as like a fun challenge.
How much more creative can I be in my storytelling? How much more can I push the boundaries of what I'm doing?
I'm not really sure what comes next for me.
And by the way, that's kind of how I felt since the very beginning
I think that's the point.
And I think there's no better way of learning how to do something than by doing it.
I have always loved to tell stories. I'm just gonna be trying to throw out creative , maybe cool short stories,
This sort of speaking vlogging kind of thing.
This speaking vlogging kind of thing, huh?
I want to start simple,
and go from there.
Sounds like a plan.
And, see where this takes us...
All right, I think we're gonna cut seventeen-year-old Nathan off right there.
It's been nice meeting you.
Have a nice day.
This is going absolutely nowhere.
See you later
Okay, I'm putting it into this if you'd like to watch the entirety of my first ever YouTube video,
it's available exclusively on my Patreon page,
and I plan to share a few more oldies but goodies on there moving forward.
This was a very personal video that I wanted to make
mainly because it's difficult for me to look back at my old work.
It's hard to watch. It's challenging for me to accept.
Making this has kind of helped me
come to terms with things, in a way.
I was just experimenting a lot and failing a lot along the way.
It really is the only way that I could have gotten to where I am now,
and I'm grateful for that.
Finding your voice is a very painful and confusing process and that's a good thing.
You can follow my photography work on Instagram or sign up to my newsletter.
This is also a great way for me to be able to reach you more easily moving forward because like I said,
the Internet is very saturated now.
And for example in my latest newsletter
I shared some of my inspirations that have really helped me
throughout the last few years when I was feeling just lost.
Alright, thanks for watching. I really appreciate you guys and I'll see you soon.