my name is Daniel suelo and I haven't
earned or spent a single cent in 14
years and I lived totally without money
I've actually been sleeping in caves
longer than I've lived without money
probably since the mid 90s this here is
one of my sleeping places when I had a
job a respectable job in town I decided
I didn't want to pay rent anymore and
live outdoors so I've lived in caves all
up and down these canyons
delicious this here's the kitchen
I've even lizards around here and
grasshoppers and one time I found a
raccoon down at the road freshly killed
and brought him up and cooked it but I
actually don't feel comfortable killing
anything when there's so much getting
thrown away there's like fresh meat
thrown away all the time in the
dumpsters I find that it's really rare
that I get sick when I'm living outdoors
the only times I've gotten sick from
dumpsters as if I've eaten too much
sweets but I've never gotten like
dysentery from a dumpster I've never
like vomited or whatever from a dumpster
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I looked around and I just felt like
people seemed unhappier here than they
in Ecuador here everything's just so
manicured and fake
and I go into grocery stores and freak
out there's too many choices
everything's consume consume consume
it was all just too much for me it was
like I can't handle this and my
depression just get felt like it kept
getting worse I didn't see how it could
get any worse but just kept I kept
sinking more and more and thinking more
and more about suicide a lot and I
thought something's wrong
I can't handle being alive anymore it's
just impossible I didn't understand at
first why in the world he wanted to
commit suicide one reason was he was gay
he is gay he's a gay person and he and
he knew that I've always been pretty
strict about morals and all this sort of
thing you know and I think it he was
afraid that the family might disown him
he's the one that way I can't help it
nice I know what and I agree with that I
don't not enjoyed you for that but to me
he'd have to be a virgin about it but
they never got to the point of full
acceptance which I never really expected
so I went back to Moab and resumed my
job at the women's shelter is the
homeless coordinator it was there that I
decided I didn't want to live in a house
that I wanted to live in a cave plus I
was just trying to save money and I
moved into a cave and continued to go to
work and they called me the homeless
homeless coordinator he knows about
Christ in his life you know he never
married and he was helping people and he
never used money and and so I thought
well if that's what he wants to live his
life that's his business
this is what you know well you know this
stuff is going to be thrown away its
wasted now I realize of course they
can't sell it after it's date but
somehow I'll be put into use and so I
I'm all for him going in there and then
the food as long as you don't pick up
something that's been in there and
getting poisoned you know that was moan
and concern but he knows better than
that he knows what to pick he knows
exactly what to choose we discussed the
whole homosexuality thing yeah my dad is
quite open about it and my mom well she
came around to finally he comes around
whenever he can and we just love to have
him here I love you so much and I'm like
nothing like that is gonna separate us
you for this route for a bonus and all
the spiritual physical and that leaves
that we need we just thank you but more
heart is that I finally came to the
place where this is my roots and I have
to accept my roots and I'm not going to
feel a complete human being unless I
embrace the roots that I was trying to
reject
yeah I feel like we should stop worrying
live like birds that's basically a
paraphrase of the Sermon on the Mount
the birds don't worry and they don't
carry around possessions and they don't
worry about money and they get
everything they need I'm employed by the
universe since everywhere I go is the
universe I am always secure
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